My_Little_Blog_Dairy

I am back

2010-08-21T03:21:00.002+08:00

It been 1 year that i blog! Just wanna add something!!

My feeling now:
- confused
- sensitive

I hate to see u so mean to me and so bo chap me!

2008-11-22T00:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry every1..

It been months.. i din update myblog..

Today is my b'dae celebration..... Hope none of my friends will put air plane if nt i be very sad!
My colleagues be coming, my sisters be there, my relative and buddies and frenz too!!

I been working in Citi Private Bank for like half a year.. Now financial crisis hit us very badly.. One of my dept colleague left us... and many ppl from marketing kana axed!
This week been a dreadful week becos of the news..

Is my b'dae . 21st somemore... let's dun get affected by it!

Aft my b'dae i will try update again!!

2008-06-01T01:33:00.001+08:00

Sorry, i wont be blogging for the time being...

Dun expected Much from me...

If i wan to contact you all i will.. except my sistas n buddy!!

2008-04-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

I found a job, and be working next week, monday!!

I be working at Citi bank HQ as Admin exec(contract job).. Pay nt bad... almost near to air force pay...

Need to find out more abt part time study at SIM...

Haiz.. my slacking days are over soon.. time to work.. Save money and Pay for the Car... And also set a side money for my sisters b'dae... My grandma's Diamond ear ring.. a purse for my mum and a thing for my dad.... Change the car wheel rims... Modify the car.. and lotsA more man...

Tml gotta go shop for my working shoes... And go topman see and G2000 for working apparels... Got the GSt money.. can spend abit more.. hahaha

Moods have up and down
Mine are mixed
No one will ever feel the way i felt abt myself
so mixed
Glad to have all of u by my side
But will it last forever
No one knows
But one thing for sure
Family is always there my for me

2008-04-09T00:33:00.009+08:00

I am back from KL!! hahaha..

It was fun gg with my sistas.. we shop eat and joke ard.. hahaha.. i bought 3 t-shirts, avg one t-shirt ard S$12 or lesser..

My sistas also treated me spa. rainmist beauty!! Scrub + steam + conditioner + bath!! Scrub my WHOLE body.. so shy and itchy. hahaha..

Day1,

We reached golden mile ard 615am. we went to check in.. we took grassland there..

when we reached KL, Jie's dad's friend uncle Kim came and fetch us.. and send us to crowne plaza hotel..

After we check in we went for lunch.. a thai restaurant. The food was nice and cheap.. 5 dish ard ringgit 60.

then after lunch we went alot of shopping mall to shop like time square,lot10,pavilion,KL cc and etc:

Here are the some of the shopping mall:

Shop until my leg aching.. we shop for more than 4 hrs non stop. We also went to Hagen daz to eat.. it was nice man.

After a day of shopping we are tired and hungry.. and it was raining so we decided to dine in hotel room. i have chicken and mushroom pizza.

Day2.

We woke up very early to have our breakfast. then we headed for another shopping spree but before that we rested in the hotel for awhile this is what happen:

But this time the shopping was shorter. Ended up went to secret recipe for tea break.. I have alphabet fries.

After tea break we headed back to hotel to prepare ourselves for the spa.

After the spa, cos we are too shiok and it was late, we dine in hotel again. i have seafood pizza.

Last day,

As usual, woke up from breakfast.. then we headed back to hotel to relaz and wait to check out. We check out ard 1pm and went to bus pick up place.. we sat at starbuck to kill time cos our check in time is 3pm.. we brought breads, tibits and tea egg for the journey.. but be4 the journey we ate the tea egg.. it was nice and cheap.. lol..

we reached sing ard 9.. the custom was not jammed but becos the bus keep shaking.. make me wanna vomit..

When we reached golden mile, my dad came and fetch me and brought me for dinner. I have a bowl of hot mee sua soup.. it make my stomach feel better..

On monday, Rsaf called me for interview and it was tml(tuesday). i was so happy and nervous.. It was a gd news and i been waiting for.

Today, i went for interview. I think i passed the interview.. Now is only the STUPID NAFA test.. i must pass.. I heard from the captian,one of the interviewer, that earlest intake is in june and enlistment be in july.. if i passed my NAFA test, i got 3 months to slack.. hahaha.. but nvm la..

Cos i won' be always at home.. only weekend until my BMT and OCS training ends.

By the time i will miss my family and MY MON MON!!

2008-03-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

Ytd i didn't slp for whole day.. cos this morning need to go the old chua chu kang cementry to pray my grandpa(mum's dad).. we left ard 5 am, went to fetch my uncle and we reach there ard 7 plus.. Jammed for 1 hr.. oh my god...

The whole cementry is full of people praying... when leaving, my dad drove pass a lorry and it blocking my dad way so my dad as usual horn him like mad but he ignore.. my dad got angry and went down and gave the person a big kan..

when i reached home.. i knock out.. i slp from like 11 to 7...

The previous blog i said i saw a common palm civet near my house area.. i did sms the couple abt it.. beside that i also went to research on the animal.. the animal is the one that brought SARS virus to china and got the virus transmitted to human.. so scary.. luckily i did not forward to the animal.

I cook dinner as usual tonight.. but i cut myself :( now there a cut on my index finger nail.. only abt 1 cm so still ok.. but quite pain wor..

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE KL TRIP!!

2008-03-30T01:04:00.006+08:00

I met this couple who also have a dog.. And they stay near my neighbourhood.. we normally will sit down or sqauk down and chat.. or walk our dog together...

So today, i bring mon to walk i saw them.. so we chat as usually.. we will talking abt the cats around our neighbourhood.. then the guy pointed at the grass area(the uphill area where link to the expressway) that there is a cat.. so me and the lady turn and look at the direction the guy pointed. she and i realised that how come the cat got such a long tail.. we walk closer and realised is not a cat.. cos it has a long tail.. we tried to walk even closer but the animal climb up the tree.. and cna't be seen.

We continued to chat and is a long chat..

When reached home, i am still curious what was it that we saw.. so i went online and research on it.. it was a Common Palm Civet also known as a a toddy cat. here's an example of it:

Does it look like a cat.. It was amazing that at HDB area u are able to see such a animal.

I am wondering shld i sms them abt this.. that i have found out what we saw just now.. hahaha.. now i like too late.. =D

2008-03-26T17:18:00.003+08:00

Erm.. so bored.. everyday stay at look after my monster.. bring him walk.. cook dinner..

What to do.. Still waiting for the RSAF arrangement.. Ytd recieved a call from them.. not interview but NAFA test lor.. It be on 16th april at toa payoh stadium..

Ytd aft dinner and show, i went jogging.. my dad bring monster go walk.. Maybe smoke less, i feel jogging is less tough.. haha.. maybe just psychologic ma.. hahaha

today aft dinner i will go jog again.. I MUST PASS!!

KL trip faster come.. JIE AND MEI WON'T PEEP me bath ba.. hahaha.. DUN BULLY ME K!! lol!!

I have make some pics changes to my friendster account.. take a look ba!!

When can we meet again!!!

2008-03-24T02:28:00.002+08:00

It been ard 1 mth since the last paper.. and i been doing nothing cos i am waiting for my rsaf interview.. I wished to get in so i can faster go BMT..

The coming 4th 5th 6th april i be gg KL with my beloved sistas.. Hahaha.. at last i can go oversea with them althought is not very far but it goona be our very firsst trip we 3 sistas gg!!!

i miss sching, my frens and the feeling cheong project.. lol!!

Every good thing will always come to the end!!

2008-02-05T13:08:00.000+08:00

After some quarrell and argue things seem fine now.. Peace!!

I have some bad days recently.. my mood swing like hell.. maybe PMS ba.. I dun know..

LAst wed went for NAFA test.. same like sec school la.. all the station pass except 2.4km.. I got 4 As 1 Cs and F.. hahaha.. 2.4km my killer.. but i think i did improve la.. 19mins.. hehehe..

How wish i can relax.. but my mind is so tense..

New year is coming.. I bought a new jean from topshop.. $103.. my dad pay.. I brought my dad to topshop to get new pants and shirt.. everytime wear old shirt and so uncle.. this year i wan take pics with my granny, dad and mum, and a family pic.. And print all out..

Regret i didn't have any nice pic with my grandpa.. i only left with one when we thailand, me my bro n my grandparents de.. i wan more..

On the 28 jan i went for saf medical check up at CMPB.. in the end n o check up cos saf didn't schedule.. gg down on the 13th feb.. wish me good luck.. hope i can fulfill my dream..

Cutting down cig.. one day at most 2.. have a cig break for 2 week becos nafa test.. now dun have the smoke crave liao..

2008-01-29T00:48:00.000+08:00

What the hell is going on..

That chee bye ger keeps making my family upside down..

Wondering who that chee bye ger.. My that useless brother current fuck target..

When can god punish her.. I really hate shouting in the house.. Where's the peace??!!!

I wan PEACE!! THAT"S ALL I WAN..

If thAt time i just go like that isnt it better.. Dun have to go thru so much!!

Maybe cutting my wrist is not the best way to die ba.. Hope nothing can force me jump down the building!!!

2007-12-29T02:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to out with charm.. Wanted to cut hair but alan didn't open so me and charm went to shop and eat.. I went Pet lovers to buy leash for mon cos the previous one he made spoilt, i also went daiso to buy car stuff and mon stuff... Cheap ma.. every item $2.. =D

Today, i went to charm's sis party.. I brought mon along.. my bro fetch me there.. I enjoyed myself and 1st time bbq, i dun have to cook mydelf and ppl serve me... Hahaha..Then after the party my dad fetch me.. but i drove home.. a successful one i drove up multi storey car park.. next i will practise my parking and down the car park.. then i can drive the car le..

Also my first time see charm dad.. Sorry to say that i thot he those ah beng kind de.. but no leh.. very friendly..

Charm really nice.. throughout the whole party din leave me alone..

Mon and spot play like mad.. me charm n her sis n bro we went cycling.. her bro zac ride the same bicycle with me.. so fun.. we put mon and spot in the basket and cycle around.. Spot cried.. so cute...

Monday sch reopen.. hate it.. cos alot projects gg to due.. must buck up le...

Thinking wan to slp not.. if slp later can't wake up pick my bro.. if dun slp, scare i tired.. hahaha..

2007-12-26T03:14:00.000+08:00

This few fews baing a hard time for me and my family.. History repeat lor.. My bro n e gf..

Everyday my bro mum n dad quarell.. I sit there listen..

Honestly i dun know y i dun like my bro gf? Becos she's the one cos so much things.. i dun know.. i dun like her attitude, like we owe her like that.. i dun like the way she control my bro.. like everything she control my bro..

I know my bro in wrong too.. where got ppl like him keep accompany the gf, neglect the family and side the gf de.. IF he wants everything in place.. he got to know time management and stuff more than that...

Sianz la..

My mum took back the car.. my bro remove his things and the things he brought from the car.. he reached home, took the alcohol and drink.. -.-

Now he's drunk.. hear him speak kind of heart pain for him.. he still dun know where went wrong.. haiz... he is so stupid.. went to cut himself.. and complain pain.. i know the pain is from the heart la..and just say of cos la.. is fresh ma.. cut liao of cos pain la... just to distract him...

I have no cig.. cos these few day my mum at home no chance to smoke so din buy... HE ask cig from me.. i where got... But in the end i took my dad one for him.. but i did ask my dad permission.. Help my bro take out his pants, got wear boxer la.. take tissue and ask him blow his nose.. clean his body with wet tissue..

Hope tml is a gd day.. after he wake up.. talk to my mum and get himself on his feet and move on...

Just forget the ger la.. I know is hard but no choice ma.. unless she n my mum can get along.. which is impossible but hope mircale happens...

hopely my bro can forget her or maybe arrange things/make things up... so everything will be fine...

2007-12-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of my break.. today spend my day cook dinner.. i woke up at 230pm.. then go supermarket, come back prepare.. then bring mon walk..

Buddy and charm go oversea.. tml gg do project in sch.. sianz..

My fren say tml go watch movie but no news from her.. stupid wong wong xiao mi feng..

Pauline this coming thurs gg for her first flight.. happy for her yet i am worried.. scare she kana bully and is very hard for her and etc... As long she's come back one piece safe can liao... but still worry la..

I am bored!!

2007-12-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

Today got BI paper..

Not A easy paper, very tricky.. But manage to finished...

Mon and i got a romatic night today.. It was raining heavily.. me and mon sit under the viod deck for 45 mins.. Partly i am waiting for pauline.. hahaha...

Still got 2 more paper.. sianz lor.. tml gonna to study..

Update soon ya..

2007-12-02T03:06:00.000+08:00

Just got back from club.. Today meet Sistas at 7pm for dinner.. We go so many place to find a restaurant to eat..NB.. alot of ppl lor.. in the end went ting tai feng eat.. then we jalan awhile we headed to MOS.. cos pauline cos free entry.. aft a jar of drink we decide go Zouk..
Pauline can only sign 1 person in so i pay to go in.. i thot citi bank card can go in free.. aft asking then i know must be4 12.. i reach there alrdy 12 plus.. we stay till like gg 2 then leave... cos i got something on tml morning..

We sistas have been a long time din go out together le.. cos everytime got 2 lightbulb.. Jason n Nicholas.. lol..

Enjoy my day today cos was with my sistas..

Was very suprise my mum allow.. cos she dun like me go club..

I left my ear piece with Pauline n anne's hp with me.. lol..

2007-11-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

Sorry to blog aft the last post.. Busy with sch work.. nothing much happen also..

Oh ya.. got one very big one.. My jie b'dae.. hahaha.. Went to her b'dae celebration.. Was very happy.. saw all those like one year din see de fren .. N most impt sis can gather..

I was lucky man.. slp with pauline.. lucky she din anyhow.. hahaha...

Major project, other subject project.. wah.. very sian lor.. then the deadline so rush.. what the fuck..

Next thur go cut hair.. tml go buy hair dye dye first... wan look good on my birthday.. hehehehe..

I wan learn form jie also, blog my wish list.. hehehe...

Wish list:

A new bag
Handphone ; Nokia 5610 sony ericsson p1i, k810i n k850i
clothes
levis jean
PSP
watch
Perfume

All very personal.. hehehe..

2007-10-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

This week Is the first week of sch.. Only lecture.. But gonna do Major Project.. Our grp came on wed and do whole day of Project.. And finished on Thurs afternoon... But got another coming soon.. hehehehe

This week i am so happy cos i am able to see my friends.. Lotsa of them.. but the school ppl seem diff..

I also know some news friends from contender, like Izzy.. She a pretty and friendly person.. really nice talking to her, and she kills my time at contender..

One more month is my birthday... now already thinking where to celebrate with my gd friends, best friends buddy and sistas...

This year can't celebrate with all cos they all dun like.. sianz...

I read on a article; i came across this sentence,a thai sentence, and i think is very funny yet meaningful: Puen Koo Rak Meung Wah, translates something like “Friends: I Fucking Love You. PLs dun anyhow used this sentence.. Is a sentence that can't be use as normal...

That's all i wanna to blog... Blog more when more things happen...

2007-10-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

This week very sad..

My granny in Hospital Again.. Virus in the blood..

See her kana poke by needle, i see liao very heart wrenching, nearly cry infront of her.. but i stop in time..

Monday, meet up with charm.. went to get some clothes.. and also brought liting birthday present..
Went to pass to her once i brought cos on tues can't turn up for her birthday..

Today Contender again.. sianz..

My mind is all abt granny.. where got mood work..

I need a rest...

But how.. sianz..

2007-10-10T10:09:00.000+08:00

Wooo!! Today got TCA.. Sianz...

Last Sunday, brought my granny eat.. Saw that she ate more.. I felt very happy when i saw her enjoying herself.. Even spend hundreds i feel worth it but the dinner not even hundred..

This sunday i will ask my dad to go my granny house early and i will ask the maid to buy the food my granny like n cook..

I now working so can't really accompany her.. But this is the least i can do...

Mon went to welcome my new colleague, aaron.. we went to eat then KTV.. finished ard 1230.. reached home 1 plus... Next day work as usual.. wah.. tired xia...

Maybe aft next week, the first week of sch, i be gg Indra Maya Again..... Bahahaha.. TC friends....

Next week also my bosses wedding.. i be the JIE MEI.. hahahaha... So thurs n fri not working.. lol!!

I thinks that's all..

I misses u so much.. can't wait to see you.. but no chance.. the promise i gave i will fullfil.. hehehehe..

Misses all my sis and buddy n Frenz...
Tata.. shall blog soon..

2007-10-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

Sianz.. Nothing to do except on wed n sat.. lol...

Tml contender fights be a real good one..

Too bad some1 missed it.. cos of her wisdom tooth.. lol...

Next wed is celebrating alvina birthday.. I have the contender asia.. i try to go aft my event.. with my sweat smell.. lol...

i wan to meet up my frens.. so sianz....

2007-09-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

Now free to blog.. everything has settled.. But not my emotion.. LOL..

Kana Caught smoke.. My mum kept nag at me.. i am gg crazy...

I wan to destress.. no time..

Just got my pay.. i think tml then can get.. just bank in... not many.. but still can surive.. lol..

I wan to meet my fren and slack.... Y.. no time at all.. sian...

2007-09-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

It been long time i have not blog.. Cos having big event right now..
I now doing The Contender Asia 2007, a reality show like apprentice..
It is now opened to public to watch.. A new fight..MUAY THAI FIGHT!!

So every wed n sat i not free.. lol..

On oct 13, is our sistas day but that day i got event.. sianz.. PLaning meet up with my sistas.. That day also celebrating Liting n Joan Birthday.. Kinda of miss my RMT frenz..

Last Thurs went to makan with charm.. went to eat sakae sushi.. very filled..

Have not been meeting my sis lately.. three of us are busy.. kinda miss them n the gathering we had...

Can i jus celebrate ur birthday with u only.. i dun know.. but i will get something u will keep forever n rmb me forever..

Cheers...

2007-08-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

I been suffering thru emotion lately...
I been busy on my work.. And I also have a god son.. Ivy's son..
One night, ivy called me.. we chat for quite long.. i din know when she got married and now she's suffering alot.. I really hope i was there for her.. I hope i can help her but i can't..
Today i went to watch dead silence.. The show was no bad but the crowd sucks.. kids!!! So noise.. FUCK!!
I also saw someone i din wan to see. but i enjoy gg out with my bro n his gf..
GG to be busy.. Cos a big event is coming up.. looking forward to i.. i can learn alot and see alot of ppl...
I wan to meet up with my frenz, buddy and sistas too.. not i busy then they are busy.. SAD..I think the only peson i saw is jane and Alan.. LOL.. We got commons.. hahahahz.. jane know what i talking about..
My Buddy alan gg to ARMY soon.. wan to see him botak.. hahahaha..

C...............L...................
I hate the gg thru the two letter..

Am i Doing??!!

2007-08-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

Things seems good for me.. Got my understanding and supportive sistas n Buddy..
Now is i not feeling good about things ard me.. Will History repeat i dun know.. I really dun know..

Today went to pray my maternal grandpa @ Lim/Chua chu kang cemetry.. Hot.. Bloody Hot.. But i like cos i wear sleeveless.. Got tanned Abi.. I like..
My dad allow me to drive there.. then aft praying went my granny place.. Then i Drove my cousin Car to petrol kisok fro washing but too many car to wash so lft n went back.. I perfer Auto than Manual...lol..

I happy to see my granny getting well.. she regain her leg strength and health.. think of her days in hospital due to her stroke.. I feel sad n terrify.. Scare to lose her.. Everyday, Rainy or Sunny i will go and accompany her.. buy her food.. feed her.. Help her bath and go toliet for Business.. Evryday Wake up early like 7/8 aand slp at midnight.. Helping her do household chorse.. Hard but i feel is worth it.. I can't Everyweek not visit her once..

I have already a regret not accompnay my grandpa when he is alive.. I hope no more regret. Whenever i recall back my grandpa funneral and the sence he was at ICU with tube poke thru his neck for him to breath and the swollen hand and stomach.. I can't stop my tears falling down my cheek.. His death annivesary is coming.. I hate this date, becos is the day i lose him.. Saw him being burn to ash. left with bone.. Keeping him in my memories and heart.. I hate it.. VERY!!

I miss my grandpa.. GG lunar 7th month.. Does it mean he is back again.. =( *weep
I dun know what will happen if one day i lose her.. *touch wood I definately will break down.. MAybe i will be drunk everyday, smoke till i cough blood.. I dun know.. I dun wish this day will come.. * i cross my finger..

I willing to do anything to hold this bad things from happening... Even my lives...

This sadness is never comparable to losing someone i wanna to be...

Dun wan to blog liao.. wan go weep liao..

2007-08-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

I in dilema now.. haiz..
I told jane liao and she expected.. I dun know why i am like that... haiz..
Buddy zhui ming bai buddy le =D
Luckily buddy is there.. or i dun know how long i have to keep. I keep telling myself..

I cut my hair again.. This time short.. din expect to be so short.. but buddy say nice wor.. lol..
Black hair now.. sec sch also not so guai la.. black hair.. lol..

From friendster, Cheong pregnant le wor.. congras her.. Long long time din see her le.. then she so hard to keep in contact lor.. sms no reply.. call no ans.. haiz..
Btw i changed my number liao...hehehehe

I wan to slp now.. bye bye...

2007-07-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

haha.. GG to end SIP very very soon.. this coming month there be a number of project on hands to handle.. hope i can get my commission.. hahaha.. then i can shop n save for my car.. i intend to get a car by next year june with the down payment..

Althought now got car but impossible keep sharing n if i need as well as my ro or dad i can't used.. Anyway now can't use cos my bro dun allow me.. he say i not in the state i can drive alone.. erk....

I wan to drive my fren n sistas!!!!

Haiz.. last week i depression week.. Happy cum sad cum disappointed..

But luckily enough that my fren are with.. lol.. esp jane n xiao ai.. Ai ni men....

GTG.. bye bye

2007-07-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

Gg To end my SIP soon.. hahaha.. But however i be continued to work there till sch reopen.. then when studing i be continuing working there as part time.. U can say i siao u also can say i too into this line..
The continued will be like my apprentice days.. I will learn as much as i can so when i graduate, i can full timed be my project executive, and hope in half a year to one year, i can climb to manager.. yup...
Dun ask me how much i was offered.. It be alot including my commission...

When i saw that sentences, i was overjoyed, but when i think of chances, i depressed...
I said i have forget u, i dun know.. iam confused..
I hope to really contact u but i dun what to say..
What are the feelings u have for me, a gd fren or what.. i dun know.. Actually u dun have to tell me... u just misleading me..
BUT i hope this year my birthday, u can still celebrate with me...

2007-06-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

Ytd went MOS celebrate one of the production side fren. leonard.. So happy...
But half way thru, that's a raid.. so spoilt lor.. Ytd at mos got event, mediacorp event.. VIP area kana taken but we still got seat area at the enclose area behind DJ console.. hahaha.. there de seat better, cos sofa ma.. but very cold.. Ytd play 5 10 n drank alot.. play with elena... ytd took alot pics.. hehehe...
ytd din dance.. but know a guy who is my boss cousin intern.. he also from TP, from HTM.. dun feel confortable with him.. a very werid person.. keep ask me abt what joining Studen union what FOC.. n etc.. but aft all he quite a ok guy la.. if got his pic i put up in the blog.. cos the pic i took with him is in his hp.. i also dun know how to get from him.. Haiz.. lol
OH... i watched transformer liao.. very damn nice movie.. very worth to spend.. i give 5 stars for it.. super nice.. dun mind watch again.. lol...
I miss my clique n sis alot.. haiz... no time to meet out with them.. but i promise i will take car n drive them ard to have dinner n etc.. =D

2007-06-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

Hey!! Long time din blog le co busy.. Not work la.. just some personal things n gg out with my colleague..
Last week, on the 20th june, is my boss b'dae also my big day.. What big day right..
HAHAHA.. I got my car license le.. whahaha.. A celebration of getting my license as well as my boss b'dae.. My boss bought alot of food.. but in the end all eaten up by the productions guys.. I also brought mon along.. Just east coast chalet nah...
Last last week meet up wityh liting they all.. althought sick but still meet up with them cos it been a very long time din meet up with them.. Very miss them lor.. The meet up make me xiang thong le.. I told the news to charm n jane.. they were happy for me...
My LO came last last week too.. Nothing special la.. just a small visit..
I was offer a job aft my poly.. stll thinking to join them or go SIM for degree..
So happy got my license..
last fri went ktv with my colleague, my bro allow me to drive home, cos he drink ma.. first time go on express way.. Go up to 110km/h .. shiok xia.. but awhile nia.. scare xia..
hope to meet up with my sistas buddies xiao ai n goods frenz...
Miss u all!!

2007-05-30T11:10:00.000+08:00

The Beach at the villa.. The first pic saw a lady rite.. my lady boss.. The water is damn clear n clean.. breath taking scence...

The goat outside the gate of the resort.. cute?!!

Day 1 we stay in the villa.. Got two door two room.. the 1st pic is the door of me n raine room..

The 2nd pic is private pool.. the jacuzz is near the hand.. shiok wor..

Day2: the bigger villa.. that's the pool.. Oh ya.. we bought floats n ball to play.. lol..

2007-05-30T10:33:00.000+08:00

Came back liao.. the Trip was Fun.. got tanned but not burned.. heng ar..
Comparing kuantan n indra maya(Bintan).. i still prefer indra maya.. althought both are villas.. but indra maya one in much more privacy comparing la..
Kuantan one is nice with very clear water but the villa is not as nice as indra maya.. the sky is not as beautiful..
the journey was very tiring.. ten over hours of bus travelling.. oh my.. sleep all the way..

Day 1: left ard 2 am, then travel ten hours.. got stop by to go toliet n makan.. on the way there, sudden heard a boom sound.. scare us man.. we ask the driver what he had hit,At first thot it was motorcyclist or cow but a group of wild boar.. the right head light was smash.. so scarely.. got road blocks at m'sia..-.-Stupid.. stop us n check.. wth.. when we reached there was ard 11am.. went to check in then for lunch then JUMP into the pool.. woo hooo.... Swam n drink n smoke the pool as usual la... but the pool in smaller then indra maya.. But nvm.. is all about fun.. Ard 7 we went to eat seafood.. yummy.. the fish is really good n fresh..
After dinner, pool again.. then ard 12am, we play indian poker, who lose who drink.. very high xia... then all aft one bottle, SLEEP.. hahaha.. Same, slept with Raine...lol(dun think dirty)

Day2: we change into a bigger villa, the pool is bigger too.. same.. jump into the pool and enjoy drinking, smoke n food.. we order a room service where our lunch is sent to us.. hahaha.. aft makan, pool again.. hahaha..
Dinner we order steamboat to our villa, then the guys went to buy seafood, got sotong, crab, cams n etc.. very full.. aft all are filled, we chat awhile lame awhile.. Boom.. all int0 water again.. same lor.. drink smoke n relax.. aft the swimming, i went bath.. very tired.. fall aslp on the sofa set.. The rest play poker.. ard 2 or 3am.. my loady boss ask me wake up and play.. play lor.. but i was damn stone n steam... aft the bottle, ZZZZzzzzzzzz

maybe this july may go indra maya again, and one conference at jarkata... all not confirm but most likely.. hahaha...

I will put some pic into the blog.. i can't upload now cos i'm in office..

tml gg movie with colleague.. today maybe shopping... (I got my PAY)...

Having flu n cough, haven recover since last week.. haiz..

Sorrry gals n guys.. nothing to buy for u all...

2007-05-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

Now at office.. waiting for the coach to go m'sia liao.. bye bye singapore.. lol..
Sian.. now nothing to do so i blog some lor...
Start missing my gd frenz, buddies n sistas..lol.. -.-
I fall again, from a peak to a bottomless pit.. i deserve it.. noone to blame..
How wish there's a time machine so i can make myself feel better.. haha.. emo again.. i know..
I just being so confused...
Dun think so much leaving soon.. tata.. that's all..

2007-05-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sunday morning,2am, i gg for my company retrip to malaysia, kuatang.. I think like that spell..
Same, got private pool but this time round got private jazguzi.. hahaha,, shiok.. hope get tanned but not sun burn... The resort is called eastern pavillon.. 3 room villa...
I try to get some gift back for frenz n sistas.. no guarrenty... no promise.. try only hor... hahahaha...
Oh ya.. be back on tues nite ard 10pm..

I have inform number of ppl liao.. most are important ones like sistas, gd fren,buddies n you...

Dun know what to write liao.. Having a flu.. hope the sun can cure it.. hahaha..

Hope be4 end of my internship, my boss can bring us to phuket.. heard from my lady boss, is more beautiful than bintan.. bintan that villa scenery is really damn nice,very private n the sky at nite.. can't describe.. wooo hoooo!!! STARS!! shinning above the head.. like lamps.. drinking chivas in the pool n of cos smoke and looking at the stars.. Own buggy to drive ard.. no need licence... Miss that feeling.. so relax.. and fun..

I try to save money, then on my 21th b'dae, i ask my boss help me book, i shall only invite very close fren there.. stay n ferry i try to bao.. the rest pay on the own.. hahahaha....

2007-05-24T10:31:00.000+08:00

This week kinda of busy.. cos tues n wed got event.. at Grand Corpthane waterFront.. Yesterday aft work when i reached home, i run a fever.. then i took two panadol.. now ok liao.. but got cough n flu.. hahaha..
then On monday, went partyworld again.. hahaha.. last week went MOS n PArtyworld n moive with my colleague.. hahaha... Sorry sistas n buddies n gd fren can't go out with u all.. hope i can really make some time for u all...
My boss like intending bringing us for retrip again to Genting.. I think no one having internship got this kind of previlage.. hahaha..
That's all.. Update sOOn!!

2007-05-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

HAlLo, wondering for the past one week i have gone? I went to bintan for a Company retrip/Holiday.. cAme back Tanned.. hahaha.. Love it.. from tues to thurs...
went to Bintan a resort, a villa where there's a private pool facing sea.. damn nice.. din get a chance to take the whole villa pictures cos went we reached the villa, all of us jump down the pool.. hahaha..
Have seafood, italian food n extra.. Fat liao le.. haiz.. -.- oh ya.. At bintan, soak in pool n enjoy chivas.. swim in the rain.. smoke in the pool.. these is wat singapore can't enjoy de..
Envy!! Bahahaha...
The sky at night is filled with stars.. so beautyful.. how wish u are with me to enjoy the scenery... Cos i know u love stars..
I came back on thurs evening, aft putting the baggage, i went to have dinner with charm, shidah, alvina n jane.. a pre celebration for jane b'dae.. we went to sakaru buffert.. very full..
then on fri, went to Shin bar to celebrate jane b'dae.. i stay till like 12 plus i left with my bosses.. went to a club, used to be momo..Drink again..
since reach bintan to jane b'dae, everyday drinking chivas.. oh my..
I bought balesys at DFS.. Keep at home to drink with my family..
I promise to go out with u, but cos i can't take some free time out i can't go out with u..
Now everyday dun need to take bus home.. my bro drive me.. At last, the 2.o honda civic came.. hahaha.. Love that car..
Charm was the first one who sat the car among my friends n sistas.. hahaha...
I gota interview from police academy, i shall email n postpone the date cos now still studying n having SIP..
think that's all.. update soon...

2007-05-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

It Been 3 weeks of SIP.. Kinda of miss my fren already... Charm n Jane n alvina n shidah.. hahaha.. hope next thurs we can all meet up...
Anyway.. These 3 weeks really enjoy working.. cos nothing much to do.. This thurs n fri there will be an event at sentosa.. so i will be staying at sentosa on thurs nite but be back on fri nite...
I Wan to see you again.. but if let charm know, i be dead.. lol!! jane will also nag me to death.. lol!!!
Smoke n drink is now my hobby!! lol!! JK!!! hehehehehe!!!

2007-04-19T12:07:00.000+08:00

These Fews days at office nothing to do.. like now.. all of them went outstation.. sianz...
I saw the pics.. at the moment i feel very no good.. thats mean i haven forget u yet.. Must not affect my work...
I wants to go out with my buddies n fren.. but can't.. these week after work got things to do..
Smoke n smoke.. two day a packet.. now smoking... lol..
Must go out with them and eat n movies... now dun dare to eat pig organ thingy thks to that movie i watch with jane and charm...
very miss them... haiz..
am so stupid... why still keep u.. contacting u back.. wad for.. wat the hell am i doing... is there any medicine eto erase u from my brain.. there's pls tell me.. i will buy.. or just let me lost my memory n restart everything...
listen music.. smoke.. play com... that's my job... -.-

2007-04-17T01:35:00.000+08:00

Make A Quick BloG!! Cos Very tired.. wanna slp soon!!
Today is my 1st day of SIP.. Very Slack.. just think of a concept for my company web portal.. and troubleshoot printer.. rest of the time just slack.. smoke.. listen to songs..
My boss went out for meeting, so i was left alone the office... but there's a early knock off..
I finished at 5pm.. hahaha.. envy!! then my boss brought us for dinner.. we went to quarke quay hooker to eat.. then we headed down to boat quay for a drink.. first day of work drink liao.. hahaha...
We left ard ten la.. A small drink session only.. we started ard 6 plus like that...
Headed down to my granny place.. At last, my granny discharge.. So happy... Tml aft work be heading down again..
Oh ya.. now i working be using my MSN Messeger, so if any of u can use, can msn me.. hahaha.. I even got a personal desk n lappy in the office.. an a personal email.. hahaha.. a intern got so much thing.. like a full timer...
My lunch time own time own target.. hahaha... ENVY!! lol!!
Tml onward be quite busy with work le.. cos today just start.. JIA YOU Everyone!! Hope to see all of u soon esp my clique n sistas n YOU!!
TATATA!!!
ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

2007-04-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

I am looking forward to my granny discharged my SIP.. lol!!
Everyday the same.. go visit my granny n buy her lunch n blah blah.. these few days wanted to bring mon for grooming but the groomer not there.. but nvm.. tml wilol bring him there..
dun know y, yester i went to happy daze eat.. i suddenly think of you.. then started missing you.. when can i see you.. then i wanted tell charm but in the end din not.. cos scare kana scold..hahaha..
oh ya.. on tues, i went meet up with sindee for a chat session.. chat alot of things.. partly wanted to like celebrate her b'dae.. but only two of us, i also dun know how la.. in the end ended up a gathering.. lol.. the night be4, i went bugis went with n his fren, i say this pig n bought for her as present... also went drinking with my bro n his fren...
SO bored now.. also dun know wad to blog.. that's all..
How wished u are here rigth now...but u are in HK!!

2007-04-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

It been one month that i was not home.. Today came back cos mon,april 9, gg back sch for SIP thing..
My granny is getting better and she's able to discharge on the 16th april, also my first day of SIP... it a bless thing.. she able to walk herself but not as ggod as be4.. now slow n not very steady..
Thurs went club with my sistas n frenz.. Left quite early cos not fun.. very bored.. we headed to eat, i drink only.. we sistas chatted alot.. Miss a good thing in club.. lol!!
Sat went out with charm n jane.. watch because i said so.. aft the show slack awhile n went back home, but for me.. i went to meet up my cousins n my bro for aother movie,shooter.. very tired...
today wake up as usual to buy food for my granny.. then i went town meet my mum for hair cut n some shopping.. wanted buy my thing but in the end buy for household n mon n my bro.. hahaha..
Charm is back.. miss her xia.. went airport fetch but no sign cos she back on other day.. but nvm.. cos my cousin is running an errand at airport, just a ride..
very tired liao.. miss my own bed.. tatata..
love u guys lotsa..
starting to miss u.. haiz...

2007-03-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

just free to blog n do my own things..
today i cook mian xian for my granny eat.. she's now at amk hosptial.. can see she's recovering n doing very well for her therapy... in no time she can come back home..
i recieve police force letter, inviting joining police force.. so i decided to give it a try.. so i apply it online..
actually i prefer join air force but since police force invite, i shall give it a try.. lol!!
I may wan to pursue studies aft my poly.. thinking of gg SIM.. cos SMU,NUS,NTU i dun think i can go in.. lol!!
maybe we three sistas can study together again le.. lol!!
waiting for charm come back for a gathering.. quite miss her.. no one to tease.. lol!! hahahha!!
that's all..update soon...

2007-03-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

FirstLy, i need to thks my sistas buddy jane n Gd fren Charm n Classmate nurul for the concern toward me and my granny..
Now my granny is at amk hospital for her therapy session.. she's better alrdy.. And i am relieved..
last weeks till now being tavelling to hospital n granny house.. at first it was tough cos have to travel n go early morning.. but now think a bit used to it le.. lol!!
Hopefully by next week she is able to walk by her own n come back home.. I missed her presence at home..
the first Few day she at TTS hospital, i alone at home at night, i feel so emptiness..
AnyWAY i failed my practical driving test.. damn.. nvm.. my next test day is on 20th june.. must take off from my boss le.. will ask him when i saw him..

GRANNY!! I LOVE YOU!!RECOVER SOON.. *MUACK

2007-03-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

Sorrie, i won't be able to update soon cos my beloved granny hospitalised.. she got minor stroke..
I will be at hospital almost the whole day to take care of her.. n i'm staying over at my granny place..
when she admitted to on last sat, i nearly break down.. i was very scared cos i can't afford to lose her.. i have alrdy lost my grandpa.. I cried on the cab but i turn my head away so not to let her see..

This fews days, i headed to hospital early in the morning to accompany n tc her.. when my aunt arrived ard noon, i went back home to bring my dog go walk, then ard 3,4 my xiao gu wake up we headed back to hosp.. stay at hosp till like 9 plus.. then i go for my dinner.. reached home ard 11.. bring mon down walk then feed him.. my dog being very sensible.. i feel bad tat i leave him alone at home.. sleep ard 2, 3am..

today the doc help her change the drip, n poke another hole.. i saw it n i feel heart wrenching.. nearly cried..
whenever i see my granny in pain or very helpless, i was gg to drop my tears.. but i ren.. i can't make her feel even bad..
I really hope she can't recover in no time..
To all my sistas, buddies n gd fren: i won't be contactin u all due to my packed schedule.. If there anything very urgent can call me.. if not just sms me.. Sorry!!

Granny you must recover n listen to the doc.. u will fully recovered.. i promised when u recovered, i bring u go eat good stuff n we go back our old house there, bedok north!!Dun feel bad that u are a burden to us, u tc of us ever since we are born, when we are sick u take very good care of us.. now u r sick, is our duty to tc of u!!this little tired is worth to exchange back ur health.. i know ur concerned abt medical bill, is a no problem thing to us.. ur health is priceless..

i can't imagine i live w/o u.. nt suprise i may go with u.. but touch wood.. u will chang ming bai sui de.. attend my bro n mine wedding n carry ur great grandchildren... i know u are suffering now, but pls bear with it.. LOVE U!! *muack

2007-03-07T15:20:00.000+08:00

Be at My grannY place!! Anything Call me or SMS me!!!
BE Back On sunday!! BYe bye!!

2007-03-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today accompany jane go put tattoo.. make me wan to put too.. but i can't.. not my parents but i wanted to join air force n police force so can't put.. but if i can't in either 1, i will put.. I decided to put at my back.. that stupid jane la keep xia me!! bUT luckily my determination is strong.. lol..

ME n pauline meet her at Tp first then we took 518 there.. we ate lunch, chicken rice n then we went to johnny two thumb...

This is the outline make on jane back:

NICE?!! NOT DONE YET WOR!!

Done for Ard 1/2 hr, then we went smoke..

This is the done one:

Done This whole Completed art piece for Ard 1 hrs plus!!NICE RITE!!!!

During Jane Putting on the tattoo, A very funny thing happen.. When Jane Is tattooing, got another room also got a person tattoo.. a lady!! not very young, i think got In late 20 early 30 ba.. When she is tattooing, i think is painfully for her la, she scream but her screaming like moaning like that.. like having sex.. we burst out into laughter.. and the guy who is the tattooist fren say:"like listening to porn xia"!! me n pauline laugh... Jane also laugh and scare the tattooist.. lol!!

2007-03-05T02:05:00.000+08:00

This Fews Days can say got happy as well as angry..
Happy becos i went Fishing over nite with jane at marina south n manage to caught one fish with her help!! thks buddy..
Angry becos my mum.. partly my fault.. Dun wan to say le..
I wondering shld i contact you.. or not.. i scare i may fall deep... i dun wan get hurt again..
I shld not contact u anymore.. no promise but i try unless bo bian.. happy memories stuck in my head.. trying to get rid..
Hana kimi last esp le.. watching now.. =D

2007-03-01T16:16:00.000+08:00

YesterDay went club with my budd n gd fren.. Charm Jane Alvna n Amy went n Alvina GF, yuu, and the school super star geraldine.. First we went to play pool..
HAHAHA.. so suprise i saw pei yi there.. then we headed down to devils for free drink.. drink abit only.. i think 6 cuos of screw driver n one vodka shot.. then we took a cab to ZOUK.. hahaha..
Phuture Song was bad.. so we dance awhile n headed home.. i took cab home charm.. i alight her first then i go home.. reached home liao.. very hungry, cook instant noodle eat.. hahaha..
Great dance with charm.. hahahaha.. althought i know i can't dance like that with her.. but we are just good fren.. hahahaha..
SORRIE CHARM.. make ppl misunderstand only.. hahaha.. but we know we are just simply gOOd frenn.. very good de wor!! lol..
YEsterday at the club i saw quite a number of my tp fren n My classmate.. hahahaha...
N Jessie, the girl i know from city harvest...
kana pinch by some1.. so sudden that i dun even know is who.. so pain.. n also some1 step on my foot.. somemore is heels hor.. Damn pain.. OUCH!!
anyway, yesterday i enjoyed mySElf... Thanks to my FRENZ!! n of cos my Poor limb Buddy!!
LOve u all.. *muack!!!

2007-02-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Today had OB paper.. die le la.. no confidence at all.. anyway just do well for other subject.. haiz.. no confidence as well.. wanted to start tonight but in the end, watch tv n youtube.. WTF!!!

OH ya.. Aquarius ppl pls be careful of ur steps this coming week esp on wed, thurs n fri..

then Scorpio ppl pls eat carefully.. u might get choke by food or drink esp on tues n wed..

then Sagittarius which is me, i must not delcare i love someone... cos is a mistake.. WILL I?!! doubt so.. know my stand.. lol!!

Then for me only(tarot card)... i will get distracted by love/relationship or someone i love easily next week.. true anot?! quite la...
PLS take as reference only.. hahahaha..

anyway wanna wish all my classmate fren buddies gd luck for the coming exam!!
THAT's all!!

2007-02-19T02:26:00.000+08:00

Happy cny!! hahaha.. oh ya..my family bought a honda civic 2.0 car, can only get on ard july!!
today spend my cny @ my granny house.. as usual la... all of us gather.. gamble n chat..
but one person missing, my granpa.. every year aft he pass away, i hate CNY.. cos he's not here anymore.. i missed the jelly fish he made.. no one can ever make the same one he made.. if there's anything that can make him back, i will do.. even scarifice my live i will also do..
cny eve, is our cousin gathering, we 8 cousins went to watch movie, protege, men tu.. very nice show.. worth to watch.. got some sence is so amazing n comedy.. want to watch ghost rider n norbit.. charm agree to watch with me ghost rider some day.. hahaha..
i felt i so stupid n silly.. i told my frens i won't contact u anymore yet i did..now missing u lotsa.. haiz.. but nvm.. i will forget u de.. really
i think i just a person with lotsa of feeling.. two person in my heart.. both hurt me deeply.. yet i still care for them..
lasT FRIDAY consider the last day of sch.. i won't be going back sch for the past 6 mths due to attachment.. that day i kinda of emo.. cos i will be missing my group of classmate n can't study with my that clique.. so sad.. the person i most wanted to see, i got to see..
Hope charm, alvina shidah n me will still get to go out together.. last day paper gg club rite? zouk? or st james? can i ask some1 else go? hehehehe.. charm gonna kill me..
oh ya.. charm's mum ask me go pay a cny visit.. hahaha.. maybe ended up drink with her mum.. lol!!aft exam!! nope problem!!
i really very fortunate to have my sistas, buddies n of cos that grp of gd frens ard me. thk u so much..

A short MSG for my fren n a special buddy!!

CHARM: THKS!!! u have been a very good fren of mine.. always being there for me... n i was there to be ur alarm clock.. whenever i sms u or call u, u nv failed to reply me.. really thks.. ur these reply have been a very good console to me n a great help!! LOVee ya deep deep much much k... i think last friday will be the last morning i rang u 2 wake u up.. maybe gonna miss ur that hmm sound.. lol!! althought i may "talk louder" to u, but i dun really mean it la.. i not scolding u just that i have a loud voice.. lol!! even thought we having our SIP i hope we can get in contact n have dinner together k..then when i got my licsence, i will pick u up n we can go eat good stuff. HOT N SPICY food!!! lol!! pls prepare 2 big bottles of drink for me then.. lol!!!

DEE!!: thks ger for the valentine gift.. love it.. althought we are not in the same class anymore, but u nv change the position in my heart.. bear this in mind my ger.. the promise i gave u i won't nv forget n failed.. we went thru alot of things n came so far.. sometimes i felt i neglect u, but i din wanted.. i am sorrie.. PLS ger, keep me in contact.. if i din msg u, doesn't mean i forget u.. u can msg me de wor.. lol!! Ur presense during my 19th b'dae i am really very happy.. very!!thks!! this year i will celebrate ur b'dae with u de.. lOVE YA!!

JANE(BUDDY): Buddy ar.. see i mention u le la.. but really have to thks u.. not u same course with me, i will really break down.. u know a lot things abt me, i also.. u really there for me lor. thks!! something meant to be kept in my heart de la.. u know la.. i not so mushy to u de.. oh ya..if u finished ur food be4 me, pls dun keep asking me finished my food faster n accompany u go smoke la.. will cause indegestive de la.. lol!!! anything call me or sms me k.. i will also be there for u.. not u i won't met cahrm n alvina these two gd fren.. thks buddy.. buddy forever n rulezzzzzzz........ LOVE YA TOO!!

Alvina: hey!! thks ger.. listen to my foes at all times whenver i need some1 to talk to at late night u were there for me n whenever i need a fren.. i really glad i know u.. pls.. dun ever do or make charm in public places.. in class ok!! in toliet also ok.. but places where there's alot of ppl.. pls NO huh!! know i naggy la.. hahaha!! aft exam sun tanned n swimming hor.. ON huh!! lol!! love ya.. keep in contact during SIP!!

2007-02-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

Today at lsat finished my OTBS le.. one man work in PHP codes... hahaha..
but got one i can't do xia.. sad.. but at least i tried.. lol...
TodY IS VALENTINE day.. spending it with com n OTBS.. sucks..
But i got a gift from sindee.. chocolate.. althought i dun really take sweet stuff but i will eat de.. cos it will be sweeter.. lol..
I need to get gift for alvina n shidah n charm(xiao ai)..they got buy for me leh, can't dun return one.. tml go bookshop get.. cos i really dun know what to get..
i wanted to get a stalk of rose for dee in return(sch got sell), but she has left the sch..
i shall get u other things ba.. but it will take some time... lol..
I wanna wish everyone happy valentine day.. and a happy new year..
at last my com fix.. but alot things to install...
Oh ya.. i got myself a self sercure attachment.. my parents' fren company.. a event company.. it will be fun.. cos is a smoking environment, i heard..

2007-02-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

I resume smoking.. lol.. i today bought a packet.. hahaha...
being smoking so long, is really hard to quit.. but i will cut down.. charm gonna scold me if she know i resume..
today went for my driving lesson.. my parral parking ok liao... lol..
i also heard a news, eleanor told me.. at first i was sad then i sms charm told her, she console me.. thks ger.. being there for me..
must slp early tonight.. tml need to cheong my project at ten.. deadline tml at 12pm...
nite nite...

2007-02-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

I quiting smoking.. not being like smoking one stick for 3 days le.. now like drug addict sia.. kept running nose.. hahaha..
hope can really quit... any reward for that!! lol!!!
Today do that stupid sand project till 5.. oh my... then accompany shidah go bookshop.. we two decided to get charm a new file.. cos hers is like too bad condition..
watching hana kimi now.. very nice show..
homosexual isn't a crime.. lol!!! tong zhi wan sui!!!

2007-02-05T04:07:00.000+08:00

Today went to eat ma la steamboat.. damn shiok..my granny join us too.. happy family.. aft makan we went to walk chinatown with my dog too.. so many ppl touch him.. lol!!!
Then my bro talk to my mum n dad abt getting a car.. gg to buy one.. but dun know which model and brand yet.. any car for me also can.. lol..
being watching hana kimi these few days.. kana attracted le sia.. lol..
haiz.. still emo these few days..
but i have make up my mind le.. i will still contact her.. must look generous ma.. look as even i am ok..
ya.. decided le.. so swee leng jia you.. and i decided to quit smoking le.. hope i can.. lol...
gg slp le
that's all.. bye!!!

2007-02-04T03:19:00.000+08:00

Whatever HAppen, had happen for a week le.. I was very depressed at first but now i was not.. but whenever i think of u, i am quite sad.. honestly these past few days, i really wan to see you.. even from far i dun mind.. I Saw u at Msn msger, i wanted to find u n chat.. but i my heart kept stopping me..and like heading a voice said: u will get hurt de...
PArtly it remind me of charm words.. so i din!!!
I still like u.. i know we haVE NO chance, but somehow i still like giving myself hope..
I still thinking of u.. i still like you.. ur that smile that closeness i missing it..
I know i gave u black face n bad attitude, i felt very bad abt it..
maybe loving someone doesn't mean to have, and a way of loving some1 is to let go... As long u happy i think i will be happy for u...
I wanted to find a new one, but i can't get over you!!
Can we have lunch again.. can we meet again.. shld i contact u again.. I am tempted.. any1 can give me A answer...
Today my dad passed by ur house area, i dun know what am i thinking, i kept looking and hope maybe i can see u.. so silly.. so stupid.. maybe this is like love make ppl irrational ba...
I can't that my mind of you!! anyone can help here?!!
pls tell me u love me too!!

2007-02-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

today, aft driving went to meet jane.. she acompany have lunch n buy 4-D..
these few days a bit moody, can be happy awhile, later sad again..
i even scold my classmate for a small matter.. i am sorry..
Lucky got charm n jane here to support me.. or i will fall until very damn bad..
i being avoid and showing cold attitude to u.. i dun wish but bo bian.. i dun wan get hurt once again..
i hope these few weeks i will not see u.. so i wonlt think again..
charm not gg sch.. no one accompany me for brk.. sian.. but jane say she will pei me.. no so bad... lol!!!

2007-01-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

today, my heart drop from the peak to the bottomless pit.. i feel like crying out, but i know i shld be strong so i ren... but can see i really sad n emo..
thks charm.. for console me.. i din wan to stay at home alone, so i brought mon to charm place.. mon get to play with SPOT... play like hell xia.. kept playing... with the accompany of charm, her sibling n shidah, i felt much better.. i think of anything.. but, i get to drink beer with charm mum.. COOL!!! Oh ya,i help her bath spot in the end i wet my pants.. abit only la.. she also learn quite a few tips from me.. lol...
i stay over for dinner, thks for the dinner auntie.. then we brought our dog for a walk before i go home.. i stay till like 930 then left the place...
Charm scare of cat huh, me and her bro scare her a few times about the cat.. her reaction is to cute... lol... it was fun playing with them at the play ground, i been a long time i step into the playground le...
I felt i bothering charm.. becos of me she can't slp.. hehehe.. she being a very nice fren, accompany me, being there for me when i needed.. she knew i dun wan to go home early, she allow me stay longer n accompany me.. i can see she tired, yet she accompany me.. thks charm..
I gald GOD gave me such a nice fren... love u k... lol...
But god being fooling me twice.. twice the same ending and same thing.. wth...
i am really sad right now.. i can feel my tears rolling down my cheek, my nose is block..
i being smoking 8 sticks today.. feel like having one more... must control..
i told jane abt it, she's a buddy man..
is there anyone giving me a shoulder to lean on.. i need it right now.. PLS.. FOC pls..

emo leng

2007-01-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

AFT thinking thru.. i thought i really like give up.. stop thinking but i just being so stupid.. once again, i contacted u.. accompany u for lunch.. be4 class help u up.. falling deep.. wad to do.. i so stubborn.. really feeling give one last try.. but then no guts...
today, i sneak out again from my cds class.. lol... then charm n others too.. feel so bad.. but cos din bring any material so din feel like leaving.. lol..
went to eat fruit.. hahaha.. healthy xia...
do havee feeling for me.. i really wan to know..wad kind of feeling?fren?like me? or like a passerby? i am so silly..

2007-01-24T01:25:00.000+08:00

i now very confused.. i know i shld give up.. really, cos i know is a prank on me.. just flirting with me.. i just can't get u out my mind.. u like the who, i know.. haiz..
thks fren who being there for me, support me telling me not to fall deeper..
I nv regret loving u.. really.. maybe we are just meant to fren, for this poly life..
we are each other passerby.. at least we have good times be4..
i hope our last day,i can say from my mouth, i love u.. and hugS!!
i wished to see u everyday, but everyday it tarnish..
I hope one day u will be mine, but everyday, the hope get lesser..My love get lesser as well... sad got accumlated!!
i heard this sentence i find it meaningful: u wil get sad the day apart cos u have 2 much happy memories be4!
i hate to see u n the person u like.. i hate u give me cold shoulder..
life is like dat.. what to do.. have to accept lor..

2007-01-23T13:41:00.000+08:00

today aft OB presentation we went to parkway parade.. before that we went roxy there for lunch cum breakfast.. hahah.. we have tom yum noodle..CHARM recommended!! had a full lunch n we went to PP for a walk.. lol!!!
that CHARM huh, kept eating n eating only.. seaweed, fruits and sweets.. oh my!!!
I love my click.. can eat play n joke ard.. lol!!! i do love my other fren la.. hehehehe!!!
i wanted to see u but u wasn't there.. i need console, but you gave a an attitude like SO?.. i was sad over it, but luckily i got my fren.. u know who are u.. the one eats 4hr one time n the kept eating..
qns? guess who!!!lol!!!

2007-01-20T09:14:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!! NOw in sch lab... yester blog until haf way cos din save so din post up.. i have to retype again.. lol!!
WED is charm 20th b'dae.. today she turning 20 le!! hahaha!!!We went to zouk for celebration..
i blog in my previous blog that i will buy her a cake to suprise her.. hahaha.. i did.. she was touched.. lol!!! I ask her to meet me outside takashimaya, then when she came, me and jane light the candle n other n me sang b'dae song for her.. althought abit embaressed, but we still sang.. lol!!!
Aft we ate a mac we went to devil bar to drink first(free flow) then when joan & sock pei reached they called n we took a cab to head down to zouk to meet them.. i thought liting was there but she was not.. we went ahead to get a chop first n meet her outside.. when she reached, i bought her to get a chop first n wait for my bro..
Jane was horrible xia.. grind until like that.. i also grind la.. of cos... i also got extra reward.. lol!!wahahaha!!
AIYAH.. forget wat i type yesterday...
oh ya.. that was so budget!! lol!!! but was fun la!! really!! love them all!!!
Oh ya again.. that sarah lek huh was there at zouk too.. she huh!! i go grind her she go kick my XXXX... scary xia.. i dun dare again!!lol!! but she got say sorry la!!
i vomit again.. two times some more.. one opposite zouk the other one at home.. lol!! whenever got ppl b'dae, i will vomit.. lol!!!Me my bro n his fren nearly got into fight, cos got a guy when dancing kept pushing me.. i can't take it n gave eye sign to my bro, n my bro grab that guy collar.. the guy say sorry n nothing happen la..
if i think of other thing i will blog again!! tatata!!
ADDED!!
I remembered!! that blur sotong charm.. nearly lost her IC card n HP.. we went back n find, luckily found hor.. or she will cry like hell!!

2007-01-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

hallo bloG!!
toDay is a great day.. i saw some1 i wanted to saw n did talk to me.. so happy.. n got sms.. lol...
Oh ya today i pass the present to charm.. hahaha... she was touched.. she said.. n she wore n let me seee. so beautiful.. if any guys saw it they will turn now man.. i nearly lol!! JK!
oh ya.. charm huh.. read my blog n check the number of CHARM i wrote in my blog.. if i not wrong together there's 14 or 24 charm in blog.. lol!!! we are too bored.. lol...
tml will be gg zouk to celebrate HER b'dae... gotta be fun... i will buy a small cake for her w/o her knowing.. hope she dun read my blog today agin... lol.. then won't be a suprise...
CHARM is a really a great fren.. she give me a feeling of fun n joy when with her... at first i thot she those kind of CHIJ girl that are stuck up kind n very arrogant,, but not at all.. she kinda of fun n comfortable person to be with.. i think the fren ard me will feel so.. hahaha...(a gd comment huh)
oh ya.. be gg back my granny place either tonight or tml evening..thur n fri no sch.. open house... so i won't be opening my email or msn mssger so anything just sms or call me.. but NOT in the early morning hor.. thks...
charm.. HAPPY B'DAE!!!always the 18 k.. lol!! n thks being my fren be there for me.. TOUCHED!!!(all my true words)
dun worry for me my fren.. tml i will be gd ger, i just drink orange juice k.. lol.. U BELIEVE?hehehee... hope jane can join us..
i miss alot of my long lot fren.. n neglected ones.. sorry gals n guys... love ya k..
love everyone tooo!!!

2007-01-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

today is friday.. end of the week..
charm also sign up for SAF.. lol!!! hope we can get the smae voocation...
aft school today, charm n me went to inter meet my bro for lunch n we chat alot.. lol!!!
neXt week is her b'dae.. lol!! turning 20 le.. luckly i year end baby.. so i can enojy my last 19th for other 11 months.. know like still at 1 then 2.. lol!!!=X
I feel very neglect my some frenz la.. sorry... bear with me.. i come meet up with all soon k...

2007-01-12T09:08:00.000+08:00

Now in sch Lab.. having OTBS.. that charm huh.. oh my.. just sms her she just left the house.. gotta be very late.. lol..
yester i just take my attendence and left for my cds.I sneak out of the class when the tutor is not aware.. lol.. then i waited for charm n we slack at bus park(canteeen) to eat.. lol!!
oh ya.. yester ar.. some1 very horrible.. aft having one plate of hokkien mee she ate another half plate of fried rice.. lol!!! SEE!! i din say is who huh!!!
Yesterday night, i went to singapore air force website n i apply for pilot n air officer.. hope i can get in.. there's 10 weeks of BMT.. i only afraid i can't pass my 2.4 only.. hahaha.. in sec sch i always walk.. hardly passed huh!! ....
that's all.. class getting started...

2007-01-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

Damn Sian now.. today got happy times also got sad times!!
HappY!! i wore my new boxer n slacking with charm n shidah..
SAD.. charm they all know la..
wan then say hi or dun even give any action hor!! dun act like!! arGGG!!!
REALLY HOR,GIVE UP!!!
DUN WAN WRITE LE
BYE!!

2007-01-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

today just go back sch to hand in the stupid OTBS project.. go at 8am... oh mY!!
aft hand in me shaidah n charm we went to eat n headed to bugis to accompany shidah to pay her jap class fee.. on the way to bugis, my stomach very pain.. i thot becos i wan to POO!!
so i din bother!! until we nearly reached cappage plaza, i went to OG toliet to POO! guess waT!! lao sai!!
Then aft we go bugis we headed to cappage plaza to have a hair cut. hahaha...my new hair style!! lalalala..
we headed to P.S to buy some things n etc.. at there i lao sai again.. aft buying stuff me n shidah headed to tamp, i go buy thing she go work.. when i reached home, i lao sai again.. n my stomack got worse.. more n more pain.. i called my mum n told her, n i took a capsule... but still pain..
then my dad knew abt it n rush home n bring me see doc..
REALLY FOOD POISONNING!! now better le.. but just lai sai.. tml got MC, but will still go sch if my stomach allow.. but must hand in my cds project!!!

hope i recover soon.. din have much dinner.. just like 10 mouth of porridge!!! feel like gg to toliet again!! lol!! tatata!!!

2007-01-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

BACKS!! i got too much thing to write le..
Last week... on wed, me charm alvina shidah n my bro n his fren went zouk.. oh my.. is damn packed!! at first only we go de but it was raining heavily so we down to boat quay to find my bro they all first then we headed down to zouk.. It was damn fun.. dance like mad n grind like nobody business!!!
at zouk i saw eleanor n her frenz... ya.. happy.. but nor hug my LEG!! -.- n vomitted in the ladies!!
then last last week, also n wed, i got a deep cut in my heart.. haiz.. over liao le la.. not thinking over it le...
on christmas eve, i hang out with my sis they all,FUN man!!!The day is the day i took lotsa of pics xia.. esp with my buddy jane...
BUT new year eve i stay at home to count down!! sianz...
Over the last week, i have been doing this stupid project otbs!! suck to the core man!!! but now almost to perfect.. hope i can pass..
OH ya.. mon fought with 2 cats n got hurt at his ball.. hahaha.. stupid mon... but now ok le.. scare me sia.. some more is on christmas day...hahah!!or ya.. i have a christmas feast at my bro ex-work place (pet shop).. his bosses are nice!!
AND the corgi is cute.. lol!!!

2006-12-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

Today, woke up at 1.45pm.. hahahaha.. holiday!!!
Then Jane call me cos she buying present for jess.. she bought her a levis watch(reserved).. and we went to popular to get some paper pen marker.. and she also bought a parker pen for jess.. so sweet.. b'dae cum christmas present... lol!!
Then i bought a paper n pen for some written wishes for the present i bought.. lol...
then we headed to BK for lunch.. then went to NTUC to buy food for dinner..
then jane headed to adeline place there to buy rose but in the end she bought online... so sweet...
if i got stead i think i also will do for her..
oh ya.. my paint brush with jane.. hahaha...
tml i be going to my granny place.. any thing just sms me ba.. tatatata!!!

2006-12-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

today aft our Ob test, me charm shidah and janet and alvina n amy went for lunch.. hahaha..
but the shopping alvina n amy din join us..
charm is so excited to get her N73.. hahaha..
we con the singtel ppl.. hahahah..
aft charm got her N73 she was excited n kept playing with it...
i bought myself a pair of shoes n two christmas present for the meeting up with my frenz next wed.. not bad quite nice.. walk here n there just to get it...
when i reached home, something horrible happen.. some idiot smash my cactus plant.. aRG!!!
i make a police report n my dad rush home... ya..
me n charm both have N73.. we play video conferencing.. so fun!! lol..
when shidah meet me to return my lan notes, we play the video call again.. but charm is slping so fun..
i can't believe my class got a pervet.. and he is so unexpected... OMG!! charm has to be caution...
hahaha.. looking forward to tml shopping again aft my last paper..
and also the gathering on next wed...
MISS ya alotsa sia..
oh ya.. i was so happy, got dee by my side.. love ya.. n be always happy.. rmber our promise.. i will kepp it forever till the day i'm gone.. lol...

2006-12-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

today at 315pm.. my parents gonna leave me n my bro going oversea... At first thought was freedom but now i kinda of bu she de!! but they will be back on thurs..
I really envy jane.. she can get her happiness so fast but me still on the long waiting list.. nv end up with happy ending.. always finished at a sad ending.. but nvm.. at least everytime the bad ending, i can see who are the fren who stood by me nv leave me...
wo ai ta ta bu ai wo!!
i really thought of giving up.. but always i dun know why i think of her... lol!!!
really can't think so much le..
i ended up with a new click n i lost another one.. i so sad to heard from her from some1 wat she said..
luckily i ended up a new click, charm... nice 1!!
dun treat me up n down.. i can't tahan.. u dun like me going close with other ppl just say.. cos is just an misunderstanding..
i think u are the second person i fall deep..
honestly, at first, i wanted u to be the subitute to forget another ta.. but i found out i have fall for u as i drift apart from another ta.. will there be another ta like u.. i dun know.. but for the time being!! NO!!!
ppl ask me why am i so silly? cos i am swee leng.. I am a person who is just so emo and really cares abt the ppl ard me..
one heart one person!!! one mind can have alot of ppl!! but only care abt 1 onlY!!! that's sagitaruas. lol!!!

2006-11-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

sian.. just finished my co&co.. stupid cds.. not fun at all.. i pefer the previous one..
haahaa..
IMUSM!!!
u be back on fri.. but i have u see next week if there's faith..
i told all my fren i giving up.. but i still can't..
u being appearing in my mind constantly...
like what alvina said.. i fall too fast for you..
i wan some1 to let me forget u.. but the some1 is not gonna be a subsitute..NV..
it can be a fren.. it can my some1 who can be there for me when i vexed.. and let me vent my feeling..
i dun think i will find 1.. COS i might fall for the person!!!
HAIZ.. just be myself..
i hope to lay in ur arms and cry.. and shout i love you!!!

2006-11-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

yoZ!!!hahaha.. suddenly want to BLOG!! lol..
today can say not a day for me..
How can u ignore me.. and being so petty...
i just teasing u, why must u so petty.. i really dun mean anything lor.. just wan to play with u and get closer..
tml u going bangkok.. have a nice trip.. bon voyage.. sms u wish u won't reply de.. wth...
I dun think there's hope between us.. i wanted to give up just like that.. somehow i can't...
i think i can only just stay by yourside as ur fren only..
but so watever.. still imusm...
thks god i have fren there for me and support me.. thks god..

2006-11-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.. aft my b'dae i was too busy to blog..
HOW"S my b'dae/ one word:GREAT!!
I got a little reward back but i get by myself.. hahaha.. only some of my fren know..
I was very happy all my closer fren and buddies and of cos my sistas came to celebrate...
Althought at first got a little problem but of cos is settle..
thks guys n gals..
i have a great dinner with liting they all..
I was hang out at the pub.. drank too fast and too thick.. lol..
love all of u all..
esp some1.. lol..
that's all..
will update asap!!!

2006-11-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

I miss you again, like yesterday.
Won't this feeling of missing you, lessen any?
I keep thinking about you.

The more I try to sort through it all, the more the tears come.
Even when I try to steal it, the memories spread into
different memories through the tears that I shed.
It makes me cry so painfully.

All I can do is regret, because all I ever did was receive.
But I'm afraid you'll forget me because I've never gave you anything.

I love you, I, I love you
These words have become a habit
and these words are among the many I've learned from you.
I sit around alone mumbling to myself like a fool.
I'm sorry truly, truly, I'm sorry.
I'm even sorry that these words are so late
But I'm waiting here for you shamelessly
Will you by chance come back tomorrow?

Even if the birdcage that represented you was narrow
I still liked it, I was still happy.
I'm returning to the day, to my dreams
when I believed in a forever without seperation

If I could go back I'd gather my heart, I'd take everything
from it and give it you.

My heart..
In the end even if you can't come
and you've changed and I'm not the one for you any longer
I'll call and call out to you again
Like a parrot calling only your name..
Wishing for only your love like this.

2006-11-22T15:21:00.000+08:00

today, din go School.. cos only lecture.. now is like raining cats and dogs.. oh my god..
hope by the time i leave my house won't be such a heavy rain...
And i be celebrating my b'dae at cube.. hahaha..
this year i go charm shidah alvina and liting they all celebrate with me.. new faces ... lol..
hope it will be a happening nite tonight..
how wish u are mine, even i think of giving up..

2006-11-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

I guess I am the stpidest person in the world.. i have such a good fren beside me but i been drifting apart from her when she's with her ex..
i felt so regret.. and yet she din gave me up.. i ever think of giving up on her.. how stupid am i!!
SORRY DEE!!
DEE!! i promise i won't ever think of giving up our frenship again.. and i will treasure u more i have ever do!!
Our frenship came not so easy!! with lotsa of obstacles.. i think more of it, more dtrong our frenship is it..
Dun feel jealous over her!! u are unique.. nobody can't replace u k..

can't slp.. too much things on my mind.. haiz.. wait for my bro come back now then go slp!!
two more days to my b'dae.. hope it will be the happiest day of my entire this year..
with my news frens gd fren buddies n sistas with me..

i was very happy when dee told me she be coming.. pls really come, i won't pai seh u k..

2006-11-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

TodaY i realised, both dee n her is so similar.. the food they eat, they both ply piano.. oh my!!!
I was So shocked when I heard that she going for piano lesson today!!!
Hope The end is different!! hahahaha...

like another 5 to 6 days to my b'dae.. so happy.. cos this time i celebrate with my new fren..

Oh ya.. i today called my cher!! i told her abt my b'dae and she couldn't come.. ya...
then we chat quite a lot.. but some how there's a bit of gap between.. but nvm.. She still my favourite teacher after all.. lol..

2006-11-16T19:29:00.000+08:00

b'dae venue had changed to cube!!
pls do come!!!
tatata...

2006-11-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

today din go school, cos just 2hr lecture.. to lazy to go.. hahaha
the past days i felt so confused.. i know u are flirting with me.. and i fel like a fool..
so i decided to play along with you.. let play man..
next week on tghurs is my b'dae.. my 19th b'dae..
i decided to celebrate at momo.. no money to open one bottle.. so just go for the ladies nite on wed.. free entry and free drink.. why not..
so hey gals and buddies and sis we shld party on the nite k.. PLs make urself free we shld partly.

2006-11-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

Now IN schoOl.. so sian lor.. Cos i finished school early today...
Then i have driving lesson at 6.. now is like fucking early for me lor..
so just blog lor.. haiz..
Today i saw liting with her new hair style.. ok la.. is nice but somehow i dun think suit her well.. but anyway she like can le..
I dun Think that's flirting with me.. i dun think so.. if it is.. i dun mind at all..
HAHAHA!!!
Dun ask me whu?I won't tell at all..lol..
I am more sure that the feeling is real.. and i am afraid this is another blow to me..
i dun think i can tahan..
anyway!! tml is my beloved jie b'dae.. And i be going to her chalet.. and have fun.. wahahaha!!
i think that's all for today.. cos dun know what to write le..

2006-11-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today Got This Interview ThIngY.. so HAve to Wear formaL To sChool..
THen aFT sch, me nad bro went to Town have LuncH.. My bro treated me with sakae Sushi!! wahahaha... then We headed For a hair cut at this hair saloon at wisma lvel 3 the scene..
The Haris dresser Is a a lady.. she appear on the magazine be4.. a lady helping model to cut hair nad entered many competition.. so haPPen my bro knew her..
i din reallY cut like so short but kanda of trimming.. when she style me hair, i it look so jap.. wahaha.. but is nice la.. hahahaha..
My bro paid for it..
hehehe..
i todaY paid nothing!!!LOL!!
So Good to have a bro who dotes me..
ThiS coming Sat is my beloved jie b'dae.. i have done something for her.. really hope she will like it...lol
Tml will be working at hereen selling perfumes.. Hope got good sales.. but so sad, charm unable to work with me..
Today i also saw something which is so unexpected at least i know she got la.. lol.. dun know what i'm saying rite.. only shidah alvina and jane and charm know.. hahaha...
Update soon ba.. won't be free this week.. work and sch!! arg!!!

OH YA!!gUESS WHAT I SAW TODAY.. I SAW HITOMI.. MY BEST FREN.. ARG!! MISS HER SO MUCH.. I THINK WE HAVE NOT BEING MEETING AFT THE O LEVEL.. I THINK!! ONE DAY SHLD ASK HER OUT.. REALLY MISS HER ALOTSA.. WHEN WE SAW EACH OTHER WE HUG TOGETHER.. REALLY MISS THE FEELING AND THE DAYS WE ARE SO CLOSE AND WE PLAY TOGETHER AND STUDIED TOGETHER.. aND I REMEMBER THOSE DAYS WE GO FIND THE BEST PRATA AND EAT..aRD BEDOK AREA..REALLY MISS HER LOTSA.. GALD THAT HER LEG HAS RECOVERED.. REALLY MISS HER VERY MUCH!!

2006-11-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, aft sch went to liting for lunch at kfc then when she go back sch, i headed to ang giong to meet jane alvina charm and samuel.. din eat anyhting thin cos dun feel like.. then aft their lunch, me and charm went to town for that event training.. boring.. have the chances to sniff the perfumes.
sniff until headache xia..
the went to but white polo T-shirt for this job, then accompany charm to centre point pay her bill and do her stuff.. then liting called me again..
cos she waiting for me, we headed down to far east to walk.. aft far east headed down to heeren then i took a cab home. the way she eat ice creams is So cute.. like rabbit... lol...
din eat any proper meal.. just a mini apple and butter cracker, that's all my dinner..
i spend $130 altogether for yesterday.. bought that white polo T a jacket bazar..
liting bought two tops.. looks good on her..
stupid ferlin keeps seeing shoes.. can't tahan her..

Trust myself better than trusting others!!
be myself, no more nice person!!

2006-10-30T03:47:00.000+08:00

JUst cheong finished watching Goong-princess hour.. so touch...
the songs in the drama so meaningful and make me thnk of soem memories..
i was confused.. i told my fren the feelin had faded, but sometimes looking or thinking, i felt so strong.. i dun know.. got very emo aft watch the korea drama
kinda of addictive huh.. lol..
my gD fre(sis) ivy got married.. she send me her wedding photo.. she won't be back till next year june cos she have to give birth first.. so missed her and her humour..
so sad can't attend her wedding or wat.. cos got sch partly my mum wont allowed..
I tried to tell you my feeling but i dare not.. i dun have the courage and gut..
i dun want u become another blow to me.. you are just so innocent, i dun lead you on.. hopely things turn out well.. still loving you!!

2006-10-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

just got home not long ago!!
Just back from a fren b'dae celebartion. not one but two!! hahaha
we meet at P.S and headed to mind cafe.
we play game there and cut the cake. i push liting face to the cake and she thought is ferlin. hehe. but when she know i did, she hitted me! OUCH!
hahaha.
then we headed to a movie, silk! nice movie!! but liting was like scared(sat beside me), kept using her jacket to hid her face. so as joan!!
hahaha..lol
i was very enjoyed today and happy. can say joy ba.
love u all who make me happy esp U!!

2006-10-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

today is liting b'dae, i was so suprised she actually invited me to her celebration.
Tml is yuan ling b'dae.
normally year end quite number of ppl b'dae which means broke.burn in the pocket. lol.
my b;dae also year end de. hahaha..
li shan wan lai ma.
oh ya, on sat brought my mon for vaccination.when he got home, he got a bit dizzy and went to slp.hahaha.
so sian. dun feel like working but bo bian, need some cash on hand.

2006-10-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

can say today is alvina toh chalet. she at last celebrating her 18th b'dae le. lol.
my mind is so messy now, maybe i just paraniod.
wan to slp but can't slp.
make be too tired and stress up le.
at last, i can go for my driving lesson, going on to be this coming wed.hahaha. damn shiok sia. when i got the licsence, i confirmed drive car around to meet my fren and fetch my sistas home.lol
can'T wait!
YOU ARE MY SWEET!
IF I DUN EAT, IT WILL MELT,
IF I EAT, THEN IS GONE.
hard to chose!

2006-10-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

i been working and staying at home.. not been going out cos too lazy and feel like not going.. haiz..
aft knowing you are so open minded, i was like very upset. ur friendly to me and closeness to me is actually ur character. alvina say i am special, i am not. is just one-sided. ever since i went in poly, everything is just so one-sided. i can't take it. i wan to ask u but i dare not. funny rit, sweee leng a ger look strong and brave are actually a chicken toward this kind of thing.
i think i have to let go. u wan or u remember u ask me out ba, i now dun give a damn le.
I AM SO SILLY!

2006-09-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

TodaY is my last day of my training.. At last, i will be on my own for handling calls.. OH.. BTW i working as mac delivery service operator.. hehehez..
At work i saw someone who so unexpected, van's ex-gf socK hui. oh man.. she looks better than last tym.. but we din talk, but we still recognised each other la..
You came and chat with me.. i was happy..REALLY i do.. if we can go out, i will be more gald and happy.. can say overjoy, dun mind other ppl going.. slowly start ma..
sometimes i thinking, i just know u for just shortly fews months, why are u so "friendly" to me.. U will make me misunderstood de.. but i can say, i nv regret what i have done for you. REALLY MISSES YOU!!
JUST CAN'T FORGET UR CUTE FACE AND UR THAT CLOSENESS TO ME!! REALLY MISSES U LOTSA!
I PRAY AND WISH U ARE MINE!

2006-09-24T03:07:00.000+08:00

nOt being home for 2 weeks.. being staying at my granny hse..
now using my cosuin com.. cousin nicholas b'dae.. staying over tonight..
mon and tues starts my work training.. not more free time.. wahahaha...
U just my passerby.. some tymes i think of ur cute, i fall for it.. i just knew there's no way to it..
Just have to let go and go for new..
so sian...
Nv regret for loving U!! My Little wish is to be with u, but it nv going to be true!!
HAO XIANG NI,NAN YI WAN JI NI!!

2006-09-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

It been such a long time for me to blog le.. to lazy to blog and to sian to actually to write my lifes and the happening.. haPpen now i free and nothing to do.. today went to sell my hp and went for a hair cut.. haiz.. no money le.. yet in debts..
aCtually meeting dee and jia to go out this fri for makan but dee can't make it cos shr going m'sia last mins.. nvm lor.. stay at home since no money.. kekeke..
yesterday went back nass to see some teacher esp Mrs cheong, with pauline.. and have our all time miss food yong tau foo.. yummy.. long time i din go back eat liao.. must rush my dad for my driving le..
no job and so sianz.. haiz... swirching on the com, dun even know wat to do and plaay with.. i think aft blog i shall go slp le.. o ya.. i just dye my hair.. dun like black hair.. lol.. kekeke..
my hair now i damn short.. anne jie and pauline mei going to kill me. =X

2006-08-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

Damn Sian now.. no mooD to studY.. sCare of this semster exam some how no mooD.. Die liao le la..
I not affected by anybody or wat.. just no mood.. Think So..
HEHEHE..
these few days very lazy and sian.. dun feel like going out or wat.. so hope now someone can talk to me and pei me...
wat can i wish for... i have a good family ties.. have good fren ard me.. have sistas with me.. wat can i asked for.. maybe a peace mind...

2006-08-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of sch.. I will miss all my classmates and frenz de.. and good luck and all the best for the exam k.. lol..
Today, I was on my way to bus park to have my lunch with yiwei and charm.. then I was thinking whether I have the chance to see some1 again.. so coincident, I heard some1 called me and is really some1 i was on muy mind and missing ya.. I was so happy.. then I continue walking to bus park.. then when me and yi wei was waiting for charm to come back from the toilet, I saw some1 classmate and I really saw her.. oh my.. I was really very happy.. wahahaha…
And so coincident, we ate the same thing.. fish n chip.. and some1 help me put sauce but I wanted tomato not chilli, some1 gave me chilli.. nvm.. I just pour my tomato on top.. hope aft exam, we can go out together and movie.. dun forget my date huh.. wahahaa… so glad..

2006-08-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

today aft my cds, i went home.. when i was about to reached home, a malay guy told me a guy hang downstair at my house.. and there's police.. i was curious and went to see.. scare.. it was true.. i saw one of neighbour i told her and we went to see... wat a experience.. now ia at home.. abit scare si.. lol...

why i ignore you.. when u saw me, u sit on the chair with me and put ur hand over me.. why i can't forget u.. i do love you.. is it a crush or wat.. why i just dun have the courage to face you.. i feel i neglect you.. what shld i do.. ask u out? really hope to see whenever i wished to.. do u have feeling for me too? or u are another blow to me? i dun know..

2006-08-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

Now is like so early.. hahaha..
just finished my cds thingy and ebiz thingy.. i not tired at all cos in the evening i slp.. yest bite i went to my ah ma place.. and just got back at ard 11pm.. and started doing my stuff..
I really have learned to take and let go.. i was very disappointed when i know somethings.. biut aft so much thought, i let go.. now i same as before.. happy..
last sat, went lim chu kang cemetry with prayer thing.. i brought my dog along, cos is like by the time i reached home it will be like 5am.. so i decided to bring him there.. he was very smart.. when we reached there, he dun dare to anyhow walk and even the grass.. and he accompany me.. love him deep deep.. the area we wen tis buried with ppl who pass away at very young age..
how sad.. aft whole thingy, i am hungry so i told my dad, and went to eat mac.. breakfast.. i have a sauage muffin with egg... yummy.. wahahaha...
fri going to my granny house.. anything call my hp ba..

U are NOt more in my control limits..

2006-08-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

At lasT finisheD my DBIS.. reaLly have to thanks mark for his help or i will stuck there and dun know how to go on.. THKS mark..
Today, really tired, aft do the edition of my dbis and upload to ole.i went to slp.. really very relax.. my dog slp with me too.. wahahaha...

Oh ya.. yesterday went movie with my cousins to watch dragon tiger gates.. long hu men.. not bad.. can watch.. the effect is damn good. i wan to watch click.. seems nice.. some of me frens go liao.. but din ask thme nice anot..

these few days i have not enough slp.. really.. i think i can have a nice slp tonight.. but tml have to wake early to go market with my mum.. a promise.. i have been slping late over fews weekend and not accompany my mum to market to help her take things.. her hand not strong as be4.. and now she having a bit of headache problemm hope nothing goes bad..

tml is my cousin 18 b'dae.. going his house for dinner and later, if i feel not like going to chua chu kang cemetry.. i shld go back my granny house.. or play mahjong with my cousins.. hehehe..

i dun know if she still remember she date me.. fireworks.. how wish the one watch with me is mine.. but only frenz..

dee: u have to be strong.. dun abit abit scare.. u can talk to me if u have any problem or even u are bored.. ok? my promise to you, i will nv failed unless i am dead.. ming bai?

2006-07-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

today, went sch just for project. haiz.. bored..
then just now bring my mon go down, i suddenly think of my grandpa.. i cried.. cos i really miss him very much.. i think of the past, the times my grandpa dotes me and the little thing he do for me for
e.g. in the morning i go school, he will escort me to the bus stop and when i saw durian shell at the lift there, i just say wah got durian, either i after sch come back or the very next day, i will saw the durian at home..
and whenever my grandma buys fish egg and fried,and i am doing things or sleeping, he will bring to my mouth.. fried chicken wing also...
every moring i wake up esp weekend or holiday, he know my grandma went to market for very long and he will pek che and say my granny likes to chit chat and forget abt my breakfast or lunch.. either he go down find my granny or he will give me money and ask me go buy my food!
whenever i am short of money he will give w/o questioning.

today, i really dun know wat happen to me. my house got sweet i still buy sweet
hahaha!!

i nid courage and confidence!!

2006-07-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

I MUST BE STRONG, I MUST BE BRAVE!
NO MORE SADNESS
I AM CLEAR I LOVE YOU!

2006-07-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

These few days no mood to blog. now also no mood.. haiz..
yest day i was too rash.. but lucky din read the last part i type.. heng ar.. dun know now what the feeling XX have...
do i have a chance or another a failure and blow.. dun know..
i really miss i spend happy time with jia n dee.. now not same le.. time changed..
i dun know my feelings.. haiz..
that's all..
really no mood...
but i wanna thks jane and alvina be my advisor.. thks...

2006-07-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

Today wenT Swimming with shijia, i thought dee going but in the end nope.. kanda disappointed.. but nvm.. she got things to do ma.. wat to do..

Think tml going to east coast with jane and alvina to swim with my dog mon and jane dog lancy!! fun fun fun...

Gotta be very tanned.. wahahaha.. love it..

u r so sweeT and beautiful in my eyes.. can't get u off my mind.. (secret)

PLs feel that i have feeling for you..

2006-07-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

today went sentosa with Jane nad alvina.. wahahha.. we bought lotsa food and till now we can't finished and act smart, we fried fries and calamari rings.. now jane and alvina at my house watch the porn star dvd.. me: blogging cos i watched liao...

Now I am like tomato and i feel hot.. hehehe.. that's the colour man.. hehehehez...

I can't get it out off my mind.. hehehe...(sHHH!, secret) lol...
that's all...

How wish u r mine!! lol..

HAPPY!!^^